Me and Portugal!

I haven't written in so long! For that I apologise! ..... well, as you might have guessed I am now in Portugal on holiday! Lovin' it!!!!

I have been here for 3 weeks now and it is so nice to be back... home is a very special place and you know when you found it. In my case I guess I was lucky and I now have two places I can call home- Portugal and England. Sometimes its hard to get your things straight and not mix them but I know I can always return to either one and be happy, so I can't complaint....

Life in Portugal has been treating me well.... obviously is hard in the beginning and my first couple of days in Lisbon were weird and complicated (full of unfinished businesses) and now feel like a distant past that I can't really remember... but I have built my bridge (or still trying to) and gotten over it.

I guess in a way it is really hard to keep track of everyone and keep in touch specially when half of your life is in one country and the other half so far away… it is easy to just hide on one side and not care anymore. In my case I always have to come back to one of those sides and face my life….I guess is the price you pay when you chose to leave the place you were born and grew up in. A price I always knew I had to pay but so low comparing to all the good things that come with it.

Portugal will always have a very special place in my hearth and every time I come back I get that reassurance, one way or the other. This time it was in the Island. I had an amazing time there and my little bubble” did wonders for me. I relaxed, I laughed, I got drunk (one too many times) and left feeling like a new person. Now I am back to reality and I am ready to face it. Like therapy…. In a way!

Tom came to visit me, we had an amazing time, once again he proved to be everything I always wanted in a boyfriend and everyone loved him. Sometimes I think I am just a bit too lucky and one day everything will just collapse on top of me… but for now I will just enjoy my happiness and put all the sadness on the back of my head.

Im sorry if I am being too philosophical today… I haven’t mentioned it yet but I am a bit ill at the moment and today started on antibiotic and these allergy pills that make me sooooo sleepy!!!!! So right now im a bit drugged and not thinking right, slept all day and need to take my next pill now! So in a little bit I will be sleepy and drugged again and might not make sense anymore!” Don’t say I didn’t warn you!

Now I am staying in Portugal until the 20th of September… it is still a long time and not sure what I will do. I though about going to a youth hostel for ¾ days by myself as I have never been away alone but never mind, not happening. Instead I am going with my sister, and Silvia and maybe two other friends! So that might be fun! I am also going to start my dissertation reading… I have so much to read it’s not even funny… so you might see me in CCB a lot now just reading and reading…. How fun 

Right people, I can feel my pill kicking in and I am feeling sleepy and confused so need to go to bed! Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz…….

Love you all lots and I will keep you posted as soon as possible about my life!

Yours always,
Sara C.